Dear Diary...

I almost didn't write to you tonight because the internet is so slow, but I decided to sit and wait for this page to pull up, because I really have SO much to tell you.

First of all.. Bristol Palin... you know, the preggers girl (well, she's had her baby now) is speaking out about teen pregnancy. What is everyone ragging her about? She made a mistake (believe me.. one that many, many teenage girls make), and she got pregnant. Welllll.. she's got two choices at that point. To terminate the pregnancy or have the baby. If she has the baby, she has even more choices.. like keeping the baby or putting him/her up for adoption. Bristol chose to not get an abortion. SO whyyyyyyyy are people ragging on her???? Unbelievable! They should look at her courage and talk about THAT!!! I mean tons of girls don't have this courage. Not that I judge them in anyway, but why are people judging HER??? She could have gotten an abortion and went on with her perfect little, ambitious life, but she didn't. She chose to keep her baby!!!! But we all know that society is going to find a problem with whatever you do, right... haha! Look at Miley Cyrus... sweet, virgin girl, who I think is a great example for my daughter by wearing a purity ring... AND she's ridiculed by everyone in Hollywood and elsewhere. She's too GOOD for them. People are telling her to make a sex tape.. I mean come on!!!! Geeze... you can't ever win.

So diary, that's not the only thing bothering me. We lost another CFer tonight. He was 60 and the brother of a great friend of mine named Brad. Yeah, he lived way beyond the average life expectancy for a CFer which is 37, but that doesn't make it any easier for his family and especially his mom, who has already lost 2 children. I'll be praying for the King family for sure!

Casey sent me a text message tonight (she's with her dad a few days). It said "Missing Clark, Rich and John". Just so you know diary, Clark is the guy at church we have been praying so hard for. He had bladder cancer at such a young age and went to Mexico after they told him here in the states that there was no more hope. He passed away this past Monday. :( Rich and John are CFers whom Casey met at the 2004 Transplant Games in Minnesota. They died after that. Casey has always had a hard time with their deaths. I do remind her that we will see them again, but it provides little comfort for her at this time. I think it has something to do with her fear of me dying.

On a really good note diary... my friend Jeri is doing so good. She had her lung/liver transplant .. uhhhhh... well, it's been a couple of weeks ago now. She is exercising and doing so GOOD! I'm so happy for her. My friends who have prayed for her and thought about her over the weeks are awesome.

So, I've tried writing a book or two in my life. One was a medical mystery that involved CF. I got to the 4th chapter and got writer's block. Then I started writing a House episode, which I think was pretty good, but once Cuddy got pregnant, I got writer's block. See the pattern?????? Sooooo I'm looking at writing my life story, BUT in the form of a fantasy novel. We'll see how that goes. I've made a few notes. I'm really hoping I get past the 4th chapter on that. :)

I'm catching up on the Arrested Development episodes. What a great show!! Absolutely hilarious. I'm really not sure why this was cancelled. Ron Howard directed and narrates it. It's great! There is a movie coming out in 2010, so I want to make sure I'm all caught up before it comes out.

My fibromyalgia is acting up. It's because the hot weather is coming. Last summer I was debilitated from it in many ways. J and I are thinking it might be from the humidity in the air that we don't have in the winter. We aren't sure, but it's definitely rearing it's ugly head again. It's not debilitating yet, so diary... don't worry about me yet.

My blood sugars are out of control this past week. They have been doing SO good, but this past week, My meter has read more 300 and some blood sugars than it has in a very long time. I do wish my transplant docs could put me on a steroid-free protocol to help with that, but I think they will only do that if you have had a kidney transplant ONLY.. the lung transplant kinda throws that one out the window!

I'm exercising. Yeah.. but... I've pulled a muscle in my back. My physical therapist told me last year that I was using my QL's in my back to lift my hips and legs instead of using my quads more. SOOOOO I guess when I've been using the stepper lately, my QL's have been overworked. Thanks to my massage therapist hubby and Tiger Balm, I'm feeling better. I just did lunges and squats tonight instead of the stepper, to hopefully give those QL's a rest.

There were tornados in my area today. Was I scared??? No, not really. Our local news makes SUCH a big deal out of ANY change in weather, because, it's very boring here... so I figured their bazillion hours of coverage was just a way to get ratings. :)

I do however, love the rain! All those people complaining about the NC rain... well... I just don't want to hear them complain this summer when we have a drought.... like we do EVERY year. ♥♥♥ to rain!!!!

So yeah Diary.. I'm addicted to Twitter, or getting very close to that. I have so neglected blogger, and so NOT neglected Twitter, that I think Blogger might be jealous. But I'm finding it much easier to fit my thoughts into 140 characters than it is to think LONG, COHERENT, INTERESTING thoughts to put down on my blog. They really might have something with that micro-blogging thing. It's more for those of us who get writer's block.. and well, diary, you know I surely get that.

Jason is at work, Casey is at her dad's, and Balin is asleep.. but no.. I don't feel alone, because I have you diary.. the only one who is always there.. no matter what. Thanks for that!!! :)

I should probably go to bed now seeing how it's 4:00 am. I'll be complaining tomorrow about how tired I am if I don't. Thanks for listening as always!