My very own Honest Scrap Award from Genevieve. Beware of the truths that follow...Confession time.. or just plain 'ole truths about myself???
1.) Ughh.. I was in denial of my CF for years. I was quite the partier in the first year of college and lived off of beer that year. Ok, not literally, but I did have a lot of it. I gained the freshman 15 and made my docs happy, but only because they thought it was from food and not beer. I thought that if I lived the life my friends were living, it meant I didn't have CF and I would be normal. I had never been hospitalized, and had always heard that CFers spend their lives in the hospital, so it furthered my denial that I really didn't have it!! I even had a friend in my first year of college who had CF and was very sick, but that too made me go into MORE denial that I even had the disease in the first place. I got straightened out about a year later, but my stupidity that year will forever weigh on me and affect me.... not physically... just emotionally.
2.) My major was fashion merchandising until I finally realized I was "sick", and I decided I wanted to help others who also had some illness. I switched my major to nursing when I was 20. This is so true for so many CFers.. we tend to go into the medical field. I am happy I got my 4 year degree and was able to work in the nursing field for 3 years after that, but also sad that I can never do nursing again because of my health. I miss it and do sometimes feel I have a "wasted" degree.
3.) I hate housework that is repetitive, like dusting, doing laundry and loading and unloading the dishwasher. I have been known to put them off until the end of time. I have actually been able to write my name in my furniture before, even though I really try to not let it get to that point. I don't mind cleaning out closets, or boxing things up to move, because it's not something I have to do everyday.
4.) I love beautiful clothes, but I don't normally buy them for me. I get a little envious of my friends who wear designer digs, but yet, I never seem to venture far from the hoodie, jeans, converse look that I am accustomed to. I would love to go on "A Makeover Story" and actually be dressed up to look like a sophisticated 30 year old (I didn't say 40), but since I have no job, and my church is very casual, I find that I cannot justify the cost of purchasing them myself.
5.) I had as close to a perfect body as I'll ever have the summer after Casey was born. I finally got hips, and just looked overall healthy and fit. It wasn't long after that that I got the "CF look" with a barrel chest and skinny arms and legs, but I enjoyed it while I had it. Oh to be 25 again.
6.) On that note, I am very vain. Probably too vain. I love the fact that I am living past the "life expectancy" for a CFer, and I celebrate every birthday, but I am also afraid of wrinkles and sagginess where it's not supposed to be.
7.) I can be mean!!!! My husband says it's my fighting spirit and the only reason I'm alive today, but yes, I can be irritable and downright mean to the people closest to me. Can I blame this on the prednisone??
8.) My illness does get to me. I would say I generally tolerate it well, but there are days when all I want to do is complain. I try not to do it on my blog, because I do realize there are people out there reading this that are going through a whole lot more than I'll ever go through, but my friends and family get the brunt of it. Sorry Angela, Kristin, Nicole, Rhonda, and Anne-Lewis, and of course my family. You guys are troopers for always being there to listen to my gripes.
9.) I occasionally let a bad word slip. I'm not a big "cusser", but I have been known to say a few when I'm really mad. I don't really want to hang around someone with a potty mouth, but do find that the occasional bad word will help me get some of my frustrations out.
10.) I am not good with money. Even though I'm not a big shopper, I'm not a big saver either. I have never been able to make wise investments. I think I'm doing a pretty good job with Casey's college fund, but when it comes to my own money, I could really stand to take a class in budgeting.
Well, that's my 10 honest things for today. I could probably take up an entire page of confessions/truths but I won't.. not today. Thanks for tagging me Genevieve, and making me be more honest than I would like... hehe.
I am going to tag anyone reading my blog who has a blog themselves.